Depression land
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1. Inner world (01/12)
Something was off. For many years I could hear very clearly my inner voice, my intuition. But now something has changed. I couldn’t hear it any more. There was so much noise, so many emotions. I couldn’t understand anything anymore. There was a kind of madness inside. inner-world There were some moments when I could…
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2. The Grand illusion (02/12)
This is the second song from the series. It’s about the many illusions that I used to believe in. Illusions that came off like layers of an onion once I’ve started to listen and feel my own truth. I’m trying through this song to express the way it felt to be a part of a…
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3. Journey through the desert of addiction (03/12)
The hopelessness and loneliness that I used to feel in the face of an ever-changing world that really made little sense to me. The true fragility of life, the sadness of the realization that everything changes all the time. The despairing attempt to escape this hard truth of change, of death and rebirth. The addiction…
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4. Anger (04/12)
For years and years, I’ve repressed my anger. For years and years, I’ve tried to keep the fire burning inside me in a cage. I’ve been afraid to let it out. I felt ashamed to let it out. All my life, I’ve been trying to be good. So how can I still be good if…
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5. Shame (05/12)
I’m ashamed of myself, of what I am. I’ve learned and rediscovered a lot, and yet the shame still lingers in me. The belief that something is fundamentally wrong with me, that something so dark and so evil is inside me. I see myself in the mirror. I see my face melting down, I see…
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6. Journey through fear. (06/12)
Fear, panic, anxiety… trying to work with them, trying to let myself feel them. Panic attacks, terror, confusion. I am feeling lost at sea in the middle of the storm, being afraid of death, but also afraid of living. Trying to find an escape, trying to run. No matter how far or fast I run,…
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7. Mechanical world (07/12)
Is the world losing its soul because of technology, or is the world gaining a new way of understanding the itself and expressing the true soul with the help of technology? robotii-1 Are we getting “colder” because of it, or are we getting more connected with it? Are we getting lost in it or awakened…
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8. Beyond the mind (08/12)
Exploring, starting to understand. There is more to life, to me, to living than I thought there was. intre-lumi But it is in another way, a way that I had never thought about. It is not even in concept, ideas or another thing that the mind can understand. There is a deeper knowledge somewhere in…
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9. A new way (09/12)
Now I know. There is another way. I feel it in my soul, I feel it in my bones. There is another way of being that is beyond good or bad; there is more than one of them, and yet it is both at the same time. a-new-way Mind, body, and soul are working in…
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10. Embracing the dragon (10/12)
I am here. I’m in the inner cave. Home of the dragon. The big, scary dragon. It is time to confront him. But this time, I will not fight him. I will do this in another way. I am scared, but I am confident. I know now what and who I am. It is time.…
